So today's post calls for a confession, I think I'm a pretty open person so I don't keep an awful lot to myself, which makes this a tough one. I could 'confess' a few things off the top of my head, but none are interesting enough to write a whole post about, so instead I am going to write a little bit about a few things.
I'm not straight
I'm not sure that I see this as a confession really, as it's nothing that I ever try and hide from anyone, but it's something that very few of you will know so I guess it could count.
I'm not really one for labels, the only one I ever feel comfortable living with is 'vegan', but if I had to label my sexuality it would be 'pansexual'. A lot of people confuse pansexual with bisexual, and though they are similar they are still different. A bisexual can be attracted to males and females, but a pansexual can be attracted to anyone and, for me at least, doesn't see gender. Of course this subject could go on for a long time, but I don't think my blog is the right place for it. If you want to know more about the differences I would recommend watching this You Tube video which explains it very simply in only only 3.39 minutes.
I get nervous every time I post something
I'm still very new to this blogging thing, so it's something that still brings a lot of anxiety. Every time I write a post I read, re-read, spell-check, double re-read and sometimes ask someone else to proof-read it, just in case. I get so scared that I am going to do or say something wrong, that what I have to say isn't good enough, interesting enough or contains a multitude of errors. Obviously there are going to be mistakes, no-one is perfect, but there have been times that I have written out posts, taken photo's and edited them only to delete the entire thing because I thought someone might have something negative to say about it. I have been incredibly lucky to have some amazing comments so far and everyone has been super nice and supportive, so the anxiety is lowering but it's still there.
I'm winging it
I don't just mean in this post, I mean in general, in life. I never feel that I know what I'm doing, like I am playing a game that everyone knows the rules to apart from me (you get bonus points if you know what TV show that line comes from). I know I'm not the only one that feels like that, but so few people talk about it that it feels as if I am. It's easy to feel as if everyone knows what they're doing, that they are all working towards something and are on the right track, but in reality the majority of us get by day by day.